You see, my lower back has been having a very heated conversation with me in a language I'm yet unable to fully understand. Granted, the attempt to convey only started last night and a dose of modest herbs and some reiki enabled me to create a position suitable for mostly-restful sleep. Even so, this morning the old girl was still mad as hell about something.
I did my best to sooth her in the morning hours with gentle yoga stretches, a very hot ritual healing shower, more herbs, and more reiki. These efforts helped me get through my Pamper class with minimal discomfort and for this I am grateful.
I was blessed with the opportunity to give reiki ... and any reiki practitioner knows that when you give, you also receive. I felt pretty good too! Until I tried to do ... something, I can't even remember what ... and the old girl roared. And I shared some fierce words with her as well!
At last, I thought, we're coming to common ground, a place where we can begin to create relationship and understand one another. "Not until you relax" I heard, and swiftly all my plans for the afternoon shifted.
"Relax?" I replied. "Relax? You want Relax? OK, you'll get Relax!" So out came the big-green-guns in synergistic combinations and while my lower back is still quietly growling, I AM relaxing and making peace with what feels like limitations in the moment ... but what I know will be something of value when I emerge from this forced and heavily-(heavenly?)-green-medicated abyss.
In the meantime ... I dream of the warm, the loving, the healing and green memories of summer ...